down with a fever
=(


10 more days
before bei comes back
=)

i think im feeling better

you always feel better when you got things off your chest
or when you ate alot of chocos
lol

i guess...maybe all along i've been the 1 giving myself pressure

my bosses they are all quite easy ppl to work with
they dont give you impossible deadline
rather, they share the workload with you
alot of times they are more stress than me lol

so now every morning
the 1st thing i did when i reached the office
is to go thru my emails and do up a to-do list
so i'll be able to follow through w/o getting digressed too much
at the same time, able to plan my time err better? haha
but i still am not able to leave on the dot =x

niways, i managed to get the interview on the 31st
but its a fri eh

how to go for it when i got work?
tsk tsk

Im suffering from ADHD
Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
which makes me

anxious
depressed

anti-social
and overwhelmed

I cant cope with work

Im fearful of sunday nights because
its work the following day

i can be happy now but in tears the next moment

I cant bear the thought of you leaving me for 3 weeks

bacause that means i'll be facing all these by myself

dont tell me off when i stayed late for work,
thats because i cant focus and am struggling to finish a task

dont be irritated with me when i cry for the smallest reason,
thats because im high on the emotional side and can be triggered easily

so bei, do you understand me now?
i need your support

i should quit my job

a simple task for most ppl is impossible for me

broke record
left my office at 10pm today
got tons of emails to go through and tons of things to do
facebook got a club thats says "working @ airport = no social life"
i think i should join that club

only reached home bout 30mins ago and now im going off to sleep like soon
bei's so afraid i'll get depression
like duh, im depressed cos you're away!

applied for a new job couple days ago
work place is at................airport again! lol
but definately diff company
not sure i'll get an interview anot
only shortlisted candidates will go for 1 on the 31st
and what day is 31st?
its "bei's coming home" day
=D

niways, going clubbing this weekend
my past weekend was spent nua-ing, sleeping and binge eating at home
so this weekend mus enjoy myself to the max
no drunk no home!
lol jk la~
anybody wanna join??
=)

its 3am on your side
yet no msg/calls from you today
hope you're fine


i miss you

Bei is miles away from me now
is he sleeping?
or is he staring out through the window?
just like what im doing now...
wondering at which part of the sky is he at?





tonight will be the 1st night
25 more nights to go

Im sad
missing you the min you're out of my sight

so tired to blog

zZzz
celebrated my birthday with bei ytd
he bought flowers for me! hehe

had dinner at white dog cafe
i had steak while bei had duck leg confit
both are so nice lo~
but the dessert at bon bob cafe is so dissappointing
the tiramisu is so not nice lo
even worse than the 1 i made
yucky

bei got me a DKNY watch

thanks bei
so many things i wanna say to you
=)

saw this super cute bubble skirt at pull and bear
but this month budget is tight
so nv buy =(

Haiz work is so stressing
just how long more so i have to work before
i can learn my make up?
airport is so fast paced
never a day have i left my office on the dot

and bei is always complaining i worked too hard
somehow, the work is just nv ending
and now, i've just been assigned with 1 more proj
totally dread going work now

weekends are like paradise to me lo

a short something to bei

I wanted to say Im sorry~
Sorry that i always pick on you on the smallest thing
Sorry for always thinking that im right
Sorry for always claiming that you dont care for me enough
Sorry for everyhting i've made you upset about
But its because of all these, i know that you dote on me the most

You're more than jus a lover
You're a friend, a soul mate

love you