my lappy sleeve finally came!
after waiting for like 17556o473 days

lets go haji on friday, shall we? =p

london was fun~
shall upload the photos on FB soon

XXX
life is unfair
but still, look on the brighter side
its hard, but it helps
=)

i realise i spend alot on shopping

everytime i come bac to sg
this is what i spent during my last weekend

shopping in FEP and Haji

cab fare to FEP - $16
black top - $38
studded slippers - $25
checkered choes - $32.90
black frame specs - $10
OPI red nail polish - $18
nail polish solvent - $19.90
customised laptop case - $64

all in half a day i've spent more than $200

not to mention i just spend another $100
shopping in melbourne and $100 on a bag from FEP

Shit. i really need to curb my spending

save up for tokyo trip!

and i've been wanting to blog abt this but

keep procrastinating

my 21st bday pressie from bei =)

i love hand made gifts
=)

A month ago
i used to be able to see/meet bei everytime aft my flight
on my off days and such
but now
i touch down not looking forward to anything
cos bei is not there to pick me up
or even to meet me the next day for a date

we dont even have time for a decent dinner
shift work and irregular work timing dont match
AT ALL

now i eat alone
sleep alone
and shop alone

i miss the old days
but this is life
the sacrifice we have to make to feed ourself and the future
as we grow older

but nevertheless
we still maanged to squeeze a little bit of time
for meaningful things like bei's birthday
and catching the latest movie in the theatres

these little bouts of time we have
are really precious now

sometimes i wish time would stop
and let me immerse in the moment before i realise that
it is already gone
and thinking abt it only makes u look back and say
"if only..."
"if only..."
"if only..."

my 21st would be coming in less than a week's time
and i'll be spending it alone at Maldives
bei is not wokring on tt day so he's gonna
spend it alone too

but im looking 4ward to this sat
cos bei's gonna have a early celebration with me
=)

isn't it great?
to have a partner whoose heart is as close to yours?

from bei.
he says it is to acc me whenever im overseas
sweet~
thank you boy =)
oh yea, its from build a bear workshop
imagine us, 2 big adults picking out clothes and shoes

for this new friend
haha

but, i love it.

going zurich tml

went to butter fac ytd night

the music was ok

but the crowd sucks

the classic 1 that happened to misty
a guy pulled her from the dance floor and

tell her "i like you"
OMG??!!
its like, you're a total stranger??
what the hell happen to sg men man

guys at butter that night were just too dangerous lol

went to a club in seoul last week

Noise Basement aka NB
the music was good man

and the crowd...

was fantastic too haha

ppl in korea realli do know how to dress

themselves up
=)

going to manila tml

sianzzZzzz =(

4 more days to our 2nd yr anniversary!
happy that we managed to come this
far even with those obstacles

and the differences we had

Thanks for the tolerance you had given me
these 2 years

love you =)

my 5th night in dubai

worst flight ever cos im really sick

had been having a bad stomach

nothing goes in but theres always sth coming out

cant really eat these few days

i had just lost 3 kg cos of this

a stunningly 40kg now

and operating flights had been a nightmare

dizzy spells and kept feeling nauseous

dunno whats happening

i really miss going back home

cant even walk for long now

right now, i am having the urge to throw up

even drinking water doesnt help

cos i just feel like throwing up whenever i tried to eat or drink

i called bei ytd and cried while i complained to him abt it

its really unbearable

im in a foreign country with no friends or family

around to care for me when im so sick

i just wish SQ could terminate me

so i dont have to pay the bond

why the fuck in the 1st place did i go for the interview

now that bei is fast asleep
i decided to do some blogging

my blog is so damm borring nowadays

just came back from a 8 days
dubai - istanbul flight
dubai is a really nice city
with lots of tall and modern buildings
and their shopping malls are like superb
have skiing and underwater world in the mall
damm big i tell you
will get lost in the mall w/o a map lo

istanbul is really nice too
very beautiful city
love all the ancient buildings there
but cant really adjust to the food

too much herbs and spices used!
no photos for now because the lights are off
and i dunno wanna disturb bei sleeping
i cant upload in the dark you see

just saw my flight schedule for the next mth
dubai - istanbul again!!
GrrRRrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i will be having seoul for the 3rd time
haiz

but i'll be going san francisco at the end of june
yeah!! happy happy~
happy that i'll be going to the states
but at the same time, worried abt the influenza thingy
contradicting~

next flight will be seoul (again) followed by christchurch
at the end of this month
=)

but if i can turn back time now
i rather i dont take up a flying job
it may be glamorous on the outside
but the inside can be ugly

my bodyclock is still stuck at istanbul
=(

counting down
16 more months before my bond ends