i cry everytime i listen to this song
watching the video is worse

Just a dream - Carrie Underwood

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil downTrying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave meWhy'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

its snowing
snowing
snowing

in zurich
1st time seeing snow =)

Bored

4th night in Abu Dhabi. Damm bored. Internet damm laggg. No shows on TV. Just got news bei have to work OT so wont be able to see him on my off days, which spells WTF and sian. Changed flight with another stewardess so that i can at least have 1 full day with bei when he's off, but not sure whether it will be approved anot cos she is biz class trained while im not yet. Hate pending status. Oh ya, did i mention im off probation alr? No more P plate. Which doesnt make a diff to me cos my name is always at the bottom which shows im still the most junior-est. Ppl keep calling me ah girl, and i must say i dont really like it.

But on a happy note, its cfm-ed that bei and i will be going Tokyo next month, woohoo!! so damm excited abt it can. Bei's excited too, keep doing research on where to go and stuffs. Went to Kino a week ago to buy map and guide books and all haha. Its like autumm season over there (ard 15 degrees) and so we have been keeping a lookout for warmer clothings, and buying it. It is shitty cos we were saying like we gonna save money for this trip. Will be taking JAL. Didnt use my free tic cos bei's tic alone cost 900+, while JAL tics for 2 cost ard 1000. Although bei's SIA tic is still cheaper but the main reason why we didnt get it is cos i have to wait for my free ticket to be approved, which means pending status till 1 month b4 the departure date and by then it will be too late and too rush. Im gonna spend my 2 (hopefully 3) of days working out the itinery and the metro lines. You know how complicated it is. Talking abt it is enough to get me all hyped up. The dates are 15th to 20th Nov. !!!!!!!!!

I got 2 compliment letters from pax. Which shows i have been working hard and working well. I would work hard for more if it helps to accelerate the depreciation of the bond. But it doesnt. I dont give a damn unless you're willing to help me pay my bond. Bei's job sucks too, too tiring for the mind and body. He got another interview this wed so hope he will get it. Its his dream job afterall. Gonna pass my all my luck to him.

ok, enough of whining and ranting. I think i should go read up this book, "How to love your life and your job". Saw it at Kino. 1 more night then im back to Sg and next trip would be manchester.

Had a great time with bei at the Siloso Beach Resort.
Wish that time had not passed that fast.
Wish that time could stop at yesterday.

Love you bei

my lappy sleeve finally came!
after waiting for like 17556o473 days

lets go haji on friday, shall we? =p

london was fun~
shall upload the photos on FB soon

XXX
life is unfair
but still, look on the brighter side
its hard, but it helps
=)

i realise i spend alot on shopping

everytime i come bac to sg
this is what i spent during my last weekend

shopping in FEP and Haji

cab fare to FEP - $16
black top - $38
studded slippers - $25
checkered choes - $32.90
black frame specs - $10
OPI red nail polish - $18
nail polish solvent - $19.90
customised laptop case - $64

all in half a day i've spent more than $200

not to mention i just spend another $100
shopping in melbourne and $100 on a bag from FEP

Shit. i really need to curb my spending

save up for tokyo trip!

and i've been wanting to blog abt this but

keep procrastinating

my 21st bday pressie from bei =)

i love hand made gifts
=)

A month ago
i used to be able to see/meet bei everytime aft my flight
on my off days and such
but now
i touch down not looking forward to anything
cos bei is not there to pick me up
or even to meet me the next day for a date

we dont even have time for a decent dinner
shift work and irregular work timing dont match
AT ALL

now i eat alone
sleep alone
and shop alone

i miss the old days
but this is life
the sacrifice we have to make to feed ourself and the future
as we grow older

but nevertheless
we still maanged to squeeze a little bit of time
for meaningful things like bei's birthday
and catching the latest movie in the theatres

these little bouts of time we have
are really precious now

sometimes i wish time would stop
and let me immerse in the moment before i realise that
it is already gone
and thinking abt it only makes u look back and say
"if only..."
"if only..."
"if only..."

my 21st would be coming in less than a week's time
and i'll be spending it alone at Maldives
bei is not wokring on tt day so he's gonna
spend it alone too

but im looking 4ward to this sat
cos bei's gonna have a early celebration with me
=)

isn't it great?
to have a partner whoose heart is as close to yours?

from bei.
he says it is to acc me whenever im overseas
sweet~
thank you boy =)
oh yea, its from build a bear workshop
imagine us, 2 big adults picking out clothes and shoes

for this new friend
haha

but, i love it.

going zurich tml

went to butter fac ytd night

the music was ok

but the crowd sucks

the classic 1 that happened to misty
a guy pulled her from the dance floor and

tell her "i like you"
OMG??!!
its like, you're a total stranger??
what the hell happen to sg men man

guys at butter that night were just too dangerous lol

went to a club in seoul last week

Noise Basement aka NB
the music was good man

and the crowd...

was fantastic too haha

ppl in korea realli do know how to dress

themselves up
=)

going to manila tml

sianzzZzzz =(

4 more days to our 2nd yr anniversary!
happy that we managed to come this
far even with those obstacles

and the differences we had

Thanks for the tolerance you had given me
these 2 years

love you =)

my 5th night in dubai

worst flight ever cos im really sick

had been having a bad stomach

nothing goes in but theres always sth coming out

cant really eat these few days

i had just lost 3 kg cos of this

a stunningly 40kg now

and operating flights had been a nightmare

dizzy spells and kept feeling nauseous

dunno whats happening

i really miss going back home

cant even walk for long now

right now, i am having the urge to throw up

even drinking water doesnt help

cos i just feel like throwing up whenever i tried to eat or drink

i called bei ytd and cried while i complained to him abt it

its really unbearable

im in a foreign country with no friends or family

around to care for me when im so sick

i just wish SQ could terminate me

so i dont have to pay the bond

why the fuck in the 1st place did i go for the interview

now that bei is fast asleep
i decided to do some blogging

my blog is so damm borring nowadays

just came back from a 8 days
dubai - istanbul flight
dubai is a really nice city
with lots of tall and modern buildings
and their shopping malls are like superb
have skiing and underwater world in the mall
damm big i tell you
will get lost in the mall w/o a map lo

istanbul is really nice too
very beautiful city
love all the ancient buildings there
but cant really adjust to the food

too much herbs and spices used!
no photos for now because the lights are off
and i dunno wanna disturb bei sleeping
i cant upload in the dark you see

just saw my flight schedule for the next mth
dubai - istanbul again!!
GrrRRrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i will be having seoul for the 3rd time
haiz

but i'll be going san francisco at the end of june
yeah!! happy happy~
happy that i'll be going to the states
but at the same time, worried abt the influenza thingy
contradicting~

next flight will be seoul (again) followed by christchurch
at the end of this month
=)

but if i can turn back time now
i rather i dont take up a flying job
it may be glamorous on the outside
but the inside can be ugly

my bodyclock is still stuck at istanbul
=(

counting down
16 more months before my bond ends

i went to g-mask my phone!

cost me $58
now i feel like buying the LG ice cream phone
tsk~

THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I WANNA BUY!!
cannot! must save..save..save..

but at the same time
i believe that spending is worth it as long as it makes you happier
HAHA
=p

some pics from the Bintan trip =)

it was fantabulous
i wish i could spend eveyday day going on hols with bei
if only life could be that simple

going on flight to new delhi in 3 hrs time
i realli hate to leave sg now
haiz =(

bye peeps

LooooOOOonng time since i blogged
growing cobwebs here le

just came back from taipei ytd night

my 1st flight
crews are nice
i got to sit in the cockpit when the plane took off
the view was splendid! =)
didnt really wen to alot of places because of time constraint
i only had a night there so the senior crews took us to Shilin night market
its just like Bugis street in sg
=)

tml night will be flying to Melbourne
hope it will be a smooth flight